Living What You Preach

Well, you've seen it in almost every one of my blogs. "Just smile because it happened." It's my favorite quote, and right now, I'm having to learn to live it. I had to part ways with someone very important to me last night. I was upset, of course, because I cared about him so much. But in the end... I guess it just wasn't working. And that's how life is. He feels bad for having made me upset, and I feel bad for showing him that I was upset... But the fact of the matter is it wasn't working, and that happens sometimes. It doesn't matter how much you love the person, that doesn't mean you're meant to be with them. And I am realizing and have realized that. Fortunately, life goes on, and I'm going to be okay, and so will he. It's sad right now, because... well... aren't break ups always sad?

And in the end, I'll just... smile because it happened...

no, No. NO!

1) Not in a million years.

2) Not if you were the last person on Earth

3) I'd really rather not...

4) Only if you hold your breath for five minutes!

5) Hey, let's play hide and seek!! (... WHERE'S MY CAR?!?!)

6) Do you have 13 toes?

7) I don't think so!

8) Not today, not tomorrow, not ever!

9) Sarah will! ... if you don't mind that she's a cripple...

10) I refuse!

11) I really don't like you.

12) Please... GO AWAY!

13) Look, you're a nice kid... but not THAT nice!

14) I'll give you two dollars if you go away right now!

15) Why don't you ask that person over there!

List of Greivances

(Don't take this seriously... but on days like I've had today... I reallyyyy think about it!)

I shall be suing AHS for the following inflictions:

-Lack of sleep
-Lack of time to do anything but homework and eat
-Fattening food (I don't care what they say, the food we are served it NOT healthy)
-Teachers who don't care
-Lack of school spirit from the student body
-THE TRIMESTER SCHEDULE (Why switch to a schedule in which we can get fewer credits??)
-No more backpacks... (Fire hazard? I THINK NOT!)- resulting in severe straining
-The handicap elevator doesn't work (this one is for Sarah)
-Glorification of Jocks over Artists (I'm both, but still)
-Lack of credit to cheerleaders
-Hiring teachers who don't even like kids or teaching


Well, that's all I can think of at the moment...

Cupid's Chokehold

I think that might be a song... but that's beside the point.

Love is a scary thing.

Think about it. Love is such a powerful concept, a powerful emotion, and an eternal tie to a person. I believe that true love never really dies... If you truly love someone, you will never lose that love, but that doesn't mean you won't develop love for someone else. In itself, love has its own complications, then the drama of mankind gets thrown in... no wonder so many people would rather stay single.

Given the right circumstances, it can be so easy to fall in love. If you're with the right person, they say the right things, they do the right things, they have the right traits... you can feel yourself falling for them. And that's where it begins. That crazy rollercoaster of a relationship. They make you mad, you slip up, they bring up the past, you make them mad, they slip up, you bring up the past... its a never ending cycle. And just when you think about giving up, you remember the good times, that far outweigh the bad...

Therefore, the rollercoaster.

But what happens when there's no choice but to end it? Then, the rollercoaster is done, but now you're on flat ground again, and you are swaying around from the difference, and now you want to go again. You miss the thrill...

It's dangerous. When you fall from love, you fall hard, and there's no getting around it. However, that's part of life, and in the end, all we can do is just... smile because it happened...

A Million Tiny Pieces

The pressure releases, 

There goes my heart into a million tiny pieces, 

I'm sorry, I apologize,

I'm still learning to hide the pain in my eyes

I see you raise your hand

I take my stand

And there it lands

This band 

Of bruises

The good one always looses

Blow, strike

Scratch, bite,

teeth, nails, pulling hair

this weight....

its too late..........

or so I thought

the scratches burn hot

didn't know I had the strength to fight as hard as i fought

I am what you're not, 

You're not what I am

And now I can't believe this.

The pressure releases, 

There goes my heart into a million tiny pieces, 

I'm sorry, I apologize,

I'm still learning to hide the pain in my eyes

I look up the air is empty

Nothing to hit me

No one to get me

I laugh, I cry, anything but pain in my eyes

because now I don't have to ever again apologize

THAT Delirious

Mono is no fun. I'm tired all the time, my stomach is killing me. I get headaches, and I want to fall asleep in EVERY class. And my throat looks like they had been abducted by an alien race. And on top of it all, I can't cheer. Now... that's just crossing the line. It seems a bit pointless, to be upset with a virus. Its not lik it knows what its doing... but what if it did? It would rejoice in the fact that there is absolutely nothing that my body can do to fight it off.

Don't worry though. I'm on vitamins now, and I have steroids for the whole tonsils issue.









Yes. I'm THAT delirious.

For right now I'm still going to school... so we'll see how long that'll last.