Only Real to Me

What is happening?

Darkness.

Silence.

Fighting...

But with who?

I wrought these chains

I clasped them around my own ankles

My own wrists...

What have I done?

Bass drums beating through the air

Slow, steady,

Declaring war.

Horns playing in a minor key,

Low rumbling notes paired with a high somber melody:

Declaring war.

Shadows dance on the wall

I've almost lost all sight

Only enough, now, to see the shadows

Passing me by

Without a caring look my way.

But why can't they see?

These chains are so real to me...

Am I the only one that sees them, that feels them?

It simply cannot be.

I can't smell, I can't breathe

I'm suffocating

Whose is the hand around my neck?

They're too heavy,

I can't move forward, I can't even move back

Why are these chains only real to me?

I'm confused, please explain

Why haven't you noticed my pain

Why haven't you found the key

To unlock my feet

I wanna run

I'm fighting again

Arms swinging, feet thrashing

But to no gain.

I remain in my cell

The bars thick and heavy

Little light comes in

But what light I can see

Is a promising light,

Promsing peace, salvation.

I've seen that light before.

I loved that light.

There's nothing I wouldn't give to have it back

But something happened,

Now I'm trapped

I've done this to myself

The chains hold me back

But they're only real to me.

So why can't I break them?

Run to the light I claim to trust so much?

That I Want to trust so much?

One day I'll find the strength,

I'll find that missing key...

Just because these chains aren't real to you

Doesn't mean they aren't real to me.

...smile because it happened...